I dont know how to put this other than Help Me someone i have no one to turn to with the truth of my nature at home

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Permalink Reply by Kalinda on September 7, 2009 at 7:21pm

First off, Hey welcome! You're from West Virginia! Me too. I know how you feel. My parents don't even believe in 'vibes'... don't feel alone. We're all different in different ways. Just try to surround yourself with accepting people and never back down.

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Permalink Reply by Night Rain Shadow on September 8, 2009 at 11:07am

I know what you are going through... although my family is a tad bit more open minded to a lot of different things... vampyrism is not one of them. Don't get me wrong they are great people, the kind that would give their last shirt off their back in the cold winter, but on some things its like trying to put a paper of understanding through a brick wall at times... not so easily done unless you are mother nature herself lol.

For the longest time I hid who I am... well I still do in a lot of ways, but that is for another day... then somehow, possibly in the heat of an argument or just an oops i dont remember, she found out. She tried explaining that they do not exist... but after a while she gave up on that and switched tactics on me, telling me that if they did they are a product of the devil (not exact words but close enough) and as such they are damned.

I tried explaining the whole you are born one (when the turned sarcastic subject came up). She replied something along the lines of, "Sweetie, neither your father or I are vampyres."

Anyway long story short, she still asks every now and then if i think I am a vampyre, I took a quote from my fiance` Zim, and tell her "no I do not think I am a vampyre mom." while in my head..." I know"... It may be tough at first, luckly my parents are understanding a bit. But I have know other parents to be outright closed minded to the point that a few put them up for adoption (saying they were not going to raise a demon), kicked them out, disowned them entirely.... but even with all the bad situations that come there will always be something good out of it.... it just might take a while to see it.

You can try if you like being subtle and hinting around about it. Like print some pages from either here or sanguinarius.org (sp?) about what vampyrism is. Oh on sang. they have a section for parents read that, print it if it appeals to you and leave either printed pages (less obvious) or books (if your'e in school and they get mad and ask you about it you can tell them its for a research project or something. I am against lying but sometimes you have to, if only to save you livlyhood ie the roof over your head) out on the table, in the bathroom or other spot where papers semi occumulate.

I wish the best for you in whichever way you choose. Oh sometimes it helps saying something to a close sibling or a friend first... so that way it helps a bit knowing that someone you trust really knows all of you, well maybe, and the world might not seem so choking.

If you need someone to talk to you can message me anytime.

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Permalink Reply by shadowmanny3 on September 8, 2009 at 3:46pm

Sometimes hiding isn't all that bad. You do have this website and there are other sites too for meeting like minded people. Plus while on the streets we as vamps can sense our own kind, it's a feeling that you feel when we are around 1 another. That way you'll know when your around other vamps. I have run into 13 here in Toledo, half of that # I know to a degree and half that # I get along with.

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Permalink Reply by Rev. AhramDurga on September 8, 2009 at 6:06pm

I have to say it is sad that we still live in a world that still do not accept our kind and still do fear us. This is because of the media and hell and damnation kinda people. The first thing you have to do is to learn to accept your for who you are within yourself, no matter what anybody has to say about it. Then you have to accept the fact that everyone is not going to accept you for who you are rather you are a vamp or not. That is just the way life is. We hate that our love one do not love as we would have them too. But that is where you have to surround yourself with like minded people and even you have to be careful. I would like think that there will came a day when we as Vamps can walk the face of the earth freely, But I doubt that will happen anytime soon. We just have to keep our faith that it will. In the mean while you, yourself have to keep loving the best way that you can and not become as those you hate the most.

HPS. Rev. AhramDurga

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Permalink Reply by Founding Father J P ChrstVampyr on September 13, 2009 at 10:09pm

My family is not very open minded themselves and my grandma who died was the only one I could really talk to about most things but of course not everything. My one cousin is easy to talk to though. I don't lie about anything but also don't reveal a lot of things about myself.

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Permalink Reply by Elizabeth, Mary Rowan (Darkfire) on September 25, 2009 at 3:55pm

there arent many accepting people where i live and they think im creepy becouse i know things that are going to happen sometimes and it scares them. they dont have anything to be worried about but, they sometimes seem to fear me, like im some kind of stranger

Gabrielle said:

First off, Hey welcome! You're from West Virginia! Me too. I know how you feel. My parents don't even believe in 'vibes'... don't feel alone. We're all different in different ways. Just try to surround yourself with accepting people and never back down.

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Permalink Reply by Elizabeth, Mary Rowan (Darkfire) on September 25, 2009 at 3:59pm

Might be easier to hide it from my family if i said "Hey granma im a vapyre" shed call the catholic priests for an exorcisim. and if i said i was a sorcoress shed burn me at the steak. So they might be sweet people but theyd defently disown me in any case. It just gets lonely sometimes having no one to turn to

Night Rain Shadow said:

I know what you are going through... although my family is a tad bit more open minded to a lot of different things... vampyrism is not one of them. Don't get me wrong they are great people, the kind that would give their last shirt off their back in the cold winter, but on some things its like trying to put a paper of understanding through a brick wall at times... not so easily done unless you are mother nature herself lol.

For the longest time I hid who I am... well I still do in a lot of ways, but that is for another day... then somehow, possibly in the heat of an argument or just an oops i dont remember, she found out. She tried explaining that they do not exist... but after a while she gave up on that and switched tactics on me, telling me that if they did they are a product of the devil (not exact words but close enough) and as such they are damned.

I tried explaining the whole you are born one (when the turned sarcastic subject came up). She replied something along the lines of, "Sweetie, neither your father or I are vampyres."

Anyway long story short, she still asks every now and then if i think I am a vampyre, I took a quote from my fiance` Zim, and tell her "no I do not think I am a vampyre mom." while in my head..." I know"... It may be tough at first, luckly my parents are understanding a bit. But I have know other parents to be outright closed minded to the point that a few put them up for adoption (saying they were not going to raise a demon), kicked them out, disowned them entirely.... but even with all the bad situations that come there will always be something good out of it.... it just might take a while to see it.

You can try if you like being subtle and hinting around about it. Like print some pages from either here or sanguinarius.org (sp?) about what vampyrism is. Oh on sang. they have a section for parents read that, print it if it appeals to you and leave either printed pages (less obvious) or books (if your'e in school and they get mad and ask you about it you can tell them its for a research project or something. I am against lying but sometimes you have to, if only to save you livlyhood ie the roof over your head) out on the table, in the bathroom or other spot where papers semi occumulate.

I wish the best for you in whichever way you choose. Oh sometimes it helps saying something to a close sibling or a friend first... so that way it helps a bit knowing that someone you trust really knows all of you, well maybe, and the world might not seem so choking.

If you need someone to talk to you can message me anytime.

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Permalink Reply by Elizabeth, Mary Rowan (Darkfire) on September 25, 2009 at 4:00pm

most of the people in this little town dont even know that they are, and if they are they pretend not to be even among likes

shadowmanny3 said:

Sometimes hiding isn't all that bad. You do have this website and there are other sites too for meeting like minded people. Plus while on the streets we as vamps can sense our own kind, it's a feeling that you feel when we are around 1 another. That way you'll know when your around other vamps. I have run into 13 here in Toledo, half of that # I know to a degree and half that # I get along with.

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Permalink Reply by Elizabeth, Mary Rowan (Darkfire) on September 25, 2009 at 4:06pm

Thankyou for responding to me, sometimes i just need someone to talk to that can understand things. and as far as telling anyone, If they dont know that im a vampyre im not going to tell them.

Lady Morphine said:

Greetings - first off, welcome darling. Alright - well your issue is a common one found amongst us. We face trials and hardships everyday just in being ourselves - but mainly, you need to follow your instincts on who to tell, and who to wait to tell. Not everyone has to know immediately - I kept my awakening a secret for a VERY long time to some of my family - and some still do not know.

The thing that got me here - and strong. . . was the comfort of having the temple uvup as a place to call home. Simply being able to talk to others like myself...about anything...its very reasurring. Everyone here gave me the strength I needed in order to become a stronger being within myself darling. Just keep positive. Keep your head high and remember we are here for you. always.

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