Stepping out of the Shadows

Greetings to all. I suppose I should introduce myself.

I am a tantric/psi who is only now discovering who and what I really am. I have always been fascinated with all things vampyre, but over the last few years my interest grew and I began to study. I found a few groups, was invited to others, and gradually became friends with others that seemed to be just like me.

Thinking back, I have been what I am for all my adult life, but didn't have an awareness of it. I guess you can say I have only recently awoken (better late than never I suppose!). I think back to things I've done since high school that I thought were odd...I spent many years thinking there was something seriously wrong with me, for I felt like I just "used" people and never let them close. I wanted the chase, the energy, the capture, the sensuality....then I was done. Most of the time I didn't want to be around them much after the "hunt". Obviously I am not speaking of family here, but other acquaintences......mostly male, but not always. For me, it's always been about the hunt and stirring up desire, which gives me an amazing high.

Finally, it all makes sense to me. I am happy to embrace what I am but I feel isolated. I desire contact with others like me and want to be involved with a group or something where I can learn. I have much that I want to learn about energy work and magick. I love the idea of rituals and ceremonies and want to be a part of something like that.

I am married, but free to feed as I want, however I want. My husband most likely will not be participating in any groups I may become involved with, though I am free to do so.

I guess that's me in a nutshell. Hungry, and eager to learn.