Forever Restless...

Forever Restless...

I cant take it anymore and If she would let me die I would. I think someone up there hates me and this is nothing but there joke; nothing else seems to make sense. I want to give up, but I cant. I am not supposed to be this damn emotional; it isnt what I am...

I wish I could pretend to be something Im not; but I do have that ability. I wish I could make someone really love me but it seems no one can. Sometimes it seems Im losing in this game of life as I lose in every game I play but I never wanted to play this...

I just want to be at peace at not be so ever restless. Im tired of taking on the world and all these responsibilities! Here I stand forever restless and wanting for it to be so. Then again what else is there for me? It seems to be all I really know...

© Rev. J P Vanir ChrstVampyr